The end of summer is always a little bittersweet, but for me, this time it seemed more so. After 10 years as a SAHM, this was the first time I spent the summer working rather than spending it all with my boys. I have to admit (regardless of how it sounds and regardless of the fact that I work part time) I felt like I missed out on so much I'd normally do with them. The babysitter took them to the pool. The babysitter took them bowling and to tennis lessons. The babysitter played board games with them (OK, so I probably wouldn't have done that, but you get my point.) I merely grumbled at them each workday morning, mad at myself for choosing a job that is so wrong for me, dreading the day ahead of me, dreading leaving them. Before I knew it, I'd dreaded and grumbled my way through the summer only to find it over before, it seems, it truly began.
But where there is an ending, one can usually find a beginning. The boys had a great first day today, and I believe, they're truly looking forward to their (2nd and 5th grade) year. I'm looking forward to making better choices and creating some endings and beginnings for myself this fall. Summer may have gone a bit too soon, but I have to remember that fall is the season of learning new things and looking to the future. So no more grumbling and dreading that which is ending. Only embracing all that is beginning!
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